Virginity lost, dominance lost...

Virginity lost, dominance lost...I'm 20 years old, I'm a regular Swedish guy, relatively average body for my height (2 meters), perhaps just a few kilos extra and I'm a virgin... I never really measured my cock, but I would say it's not small nor big. I had no more than 1 or 2 dates in my life and never was naked with a girl in ANY way... It's may 2015, I'm getting more and more frustrated for every day... I have been hanging around on a Swedish website called bodycontact.com for quite a while, spent some money to be a premium user, sent messages, never got any answers... I started to think "what about me ?? What's my problem ?". That's when I decided to change my contact survey to a bit different style, the title was "Curious..." and the category was "BDSM", specifically bondage. One week passed and I got an answer from a 23 year old girl who told me she wanted ME to teach HER the dominant part, she has always been the submissive and wanted to try femdom. I sent her a message and told her honestly I didn't know what my BDSM orientation was. She told me she was totally okay with it and that I could try both parts... I was really happy about it ! She also told me to bring some condoms because she wanted me to f**k her hard while she was all tied up. I thought I was dreaming, I was going to explore one of my biggest fantasies AND lose my virginity at the same time.The day came, I knocked at her door, she was already standing there with her long legs covered with flower-patterned mecidiyeköy escort tights and a killer look in her eyes, ready to have fun. My heart was beating so fast, I thought I was dying. When I came in her living room, I saw a whole lot of bondage gear ready to use. She told me her underwear could be ripped off or cut off if needed. "You start !" she said. I start to strip her down leaving only her bra and panties on. I'm ordering her to lay down on the bed, and when she did that, I knew I was a true dominant. I'm tying her hands together and spread tie her legs. I grab a pair of scissors, gently cut off her panties, revealing her beautiful pussy, I say "open your mouth !", she says "please don't gag me, I will be quiet !", "I don't believe that a second !" I say and I'm pinching her nose a few seconds just for her to open her mouth to be able to breathe, that's when I shove the panties in her mouth, I take some bondage tape and I wrap it around her head. "Mmmppphhh !" she expresses. Now that she is nice and quiet, I take off her bra and start to grab her breasts and feel them, I'm shivering, she is moaning in her gag.That's when my phone rings, I say to her "can I go and get that ?", she nicks "yes", I go to the kitchen and answer my phone. What I didn't know is that I left the scissors on the bed, so while I was talking on the phone, she had cut herself loose. I came back to the bedroom and she was gone. When I started to search for her, I şişli escort felt something leathery behind me, it was a whip, and there she was, naked, holding her whip and looked right into my eyes. She had a threatening look and showed me to a wooden chair, she said "sit down !", I said "why ?", she answers "don't ask, sit down !". I was a little bit scared but I did what she told me to. Now she is sitting on me, looking at me deep in the eyes and start to slowly take off my underwear. I can feel her pussy leaking on my lap. She takes off my underwear, leaving me naked on the chair and gets up for a second. I say "what are you doing ?", she doesn't answer... I start to be scared as I feel her hand holding my neck and pulls my head back, shoves her panties in my mouth, wraps tape all around my head and says with an aggressive voice "SHUT YOUR MOUTH !". She ties my hands, my arms and my legs, I can't move at all. I'm feeling how tight the tape on my mouth is as I can taste her newly washed panties. I try to talk but out comes only "mmmppphhh" sounds. She says "what are you saying ? I can't understand you really well". She sits in my lap, starts to gently stroke my cock and says "how does that feel huh ?". I want to say "so good !" but I can't express it. I could really understand how it feels to not be able to talk and tell your feelings... She starts to kiss my gagged mouth passionately, and I can't feel it because of the tape, the whole thing feels so sexy but şişli escort bayan it's a real torture not to feel a kiss...She says "haha, how does it feel to be quiet down ? Huh ??", "mmhh fhmms gwwmmht !" I say (it feels great !).She takes her whip and strokes it gently over my lap going slowly upwards to my crotch, my stomach, my breast and my shoulders. I start to shiver a little, and that's when I see everything getting dark, she had blindfolded me. Now I'm really starting to get scared... Nothing happens at first, but from one second to the other, "CLATCH", a violent hit strikes my lap, I'm screaming into my gag. She suddenly spreads my legs and I say "NO NO NOOO !!", "CLATCH" right in my crotch, the pain is huge but short. She shouts "MORE ?", I'm shaking my head screaming inside and "CLATCH", she strikes me again. That's when I suddenly decided to act like if I blacked out, she runs to me, takes off my blindfold and my gag, takes off all the tape holding me on the chair, and tries to wake me up. I suddenly jump up from my chair holding her and throws her down on the bed, I say "you wanted me to f**k you, I'm going to f**k you hard !", she says "oh yes baby !". I put on a condom and I start to stroke my cock on her clit, she moans out "mmmm I want it inside", I gently slide in my cock in her pussy and starts to f**k her harder and harder... She starts to scream out "OH YEAH BABY F**K ME !!! F**K MEEE !". She is starting to be really loud, so I take my hand and hold it against her mouth. We are both shivering and after approximatively 10 minutes of intense sex, we both went to the bathroom and took a bath together. I knew after that day that I was a true submissive and not a dominant as I thought I was...